My first choir performance

OMG, last night was so totally awesome. I had my first choir performance with Shout Sister Choir. I was so extremely nervous and thought I’d totally freeze and forget the words to the songs and all that. We did one hell of a job and I can’t wait for the next one.

Noah who is the shout Sister dog even played his part. For our last song I danced with him and definitely got the audience attention. So much so that we had to sing our last song after all, ha! There is a video of this performance and as soon as I have it trust me it will end up here as well.

Are you also someone that loves to sing and looking for a group? Do you think that “hey I love to sing, but i sound horrible?” That’s ok, Shout Sister Choir welcomes everyone. Here’s one of my favorite songs from last nights performance to give you a taste of what we sound like.

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Pretty awesome eh? Make you want to be a part? Then quick go to Shout Sister Choir and find out where the closeest chapter is to you.

Time to say good-bye

Yesterday meant so much to me. Lots of things fell into place to help me see that it’s finally time to say good-bye to old pains that have been going on for 4 years. I will not include the names of the people from my past out of respect for all parties involved. Those who know me will know whom I’m speaking about anyway.

Yesterday, November 1, 2012 James and I hit our 4 month anniversary. Wow how time flies eh? After 4 years I never thought I’d find the happiness I once had. We just fit together in so many ways. Yes, we have our arguments, fights or whatever you want to call them, but we don’t just ignore them and hope they work themselves out. After some yelling, cursing and ignoring each other for a few hours we work things out the best we can. Second to my kids, James is the light of my life. It’s because of him that I’m ready to do this.

I was married once before to someone I loved very much. We were great online friends and even great partners for the first couple of years, but something changed. I started seeing the real person behind who I married. I’m not going into all the details, because that’s not what this is for. It’s not a bitch session, but needless to say by August of 2008 I finally had enough of things that were going on. Things that he was doing inside the relationship and things that I ignored and did myself was just not getting better and it was time to go. I wasn’t sure what I was going to do or where I was going to go, but I just knew we didn’t belong together any longer. It wasn’t good for us or for the kids involved.

Well, November 1, 2008 things took a turn for the worse and things were done that I will never ever forgive. I’m letting go of the hatred I have, but I can’t let go of all of what I feel. Some things were said about me, nasty ones that caused me to lose 2 extremely important things to me, my children. Even 4 years later there’s no way in hell that due to the parties involved they will be with me again. One party is jus so damn evil and mean and the other honestly I’m not sure. I just feel that with them even though we talk it’s also a closed door. I could be wrong there, *shrugs* Anyways, it’s that thought that keeps me hurting 4 years later. Well, one thing anyway.

For months after this I cried, was in a serious state of depression and entered my suicidal state. Just hearing my ex’s name or reading it or anything that reminded me of him would set me off. Not being able to hold my kids tore me apart.

Two things happened at once that brought me out of that stage. One was that my ex told me that all our marriage was to him was a piece of paper. The second was that he already had someone else months after our life ended. So to me that just showed me that I didn’t mean much to him anyway. Yes, I did things to in the relationship that weren’t great, but they were always in response to what he did, but no one ever wanted to see that. I was the outsider and he was the one that could do know wrong. Still to this day he acts the same. Despite all that I stil care for him and do wish him the best and hopes that he found happiness in the person he’s with now. Yes, that’s the too nice me speaking, but it’s true.

Anyways, after that revolution I took time to myself. I didn’t want a serious relationship. I didn’t want anyone extremely close to my heart. I went back and forth with someone, but he drove me nuts more so than not and isn’t worth my time or blog space to write about.

I needed time to heal just a bit and figure out who the hell I was and wanted to be and where I was going. I needed to try and fix my life or get it back before I screwed up someone elses.

Fast forward to May of this year. I met James, the nut I’m now living with and though what I felt for him when I first met him scared the living hell out of me and I tried to hide it from myself. In the end, he stole my heart and I’m right where I should be.

So, to the person I once loved and the person I was before I say good-bye. To the hatred I once had I say good-bye. Maybe one day all of the pain that came with that time I can say good-bye to as well.

On to my new life with James and our family to be.


You brave enough to answer?

Come on, you’re not chicken are you? Tell me what you think.

(1) Crazy .
(2) I’d marry you .
(3) I’d date you .
(4) Sarcastic .
(5) I miss you .
(6) I’d kiss you .
(7) Beautiful .
(8) Smart .
(9) Imaginative .
(10) Random .
(11) Jerk .
(12) Funny .
(13) Funny as crap .
(14) Amazing .
(15) Tough .
(16) Cute .
(17) I’d hit you with a bus .
(18) I love you .
(19) Weirdo .
(20) Friends forever

If you answer keep in mind that I’ll comment right back if I know you, *smiles*


Found Our Dream House

OMG, I’m soooooo in love!

This afternoon James and I went to look at what we were first calling our potential new home. Well, that potential has turned into a “absolutely!”

Accora Village won me over when I first looked at the description on their site, but after going there today and seeing first a garden house and then a townhouse I’m in love. The places are totally awesome and that makes staying here at Greenbank Towers extremely difficult. Especially now with everything going on, but more about that later.

James and I will be moving into a garden house. If you count the room that’s in the basement it’s 5, count them, 5 rooms! We will have our pools both inside and out, a hot tub, fitness centre and loads more at this community. Go check it out and you’ll see. I’d say it all here but then the post would go on forever!

This will be the perfect house for us to have that family that we’re also planning on.

Another great thing is that we’ll also be close to our favorite anniversary place to eat Boston Pizza and they hopefully we’ll deliver since we’ll be closer to one of the locations.

Can we move yet?

Ok, so the reason we are thinking about moving already and want to move like now is because our current living situation has become hostile and we no longer trust management. Since it is currently going on I will not going into the details right now, but will definitely when things cool off a bit.

Anyways, back to the good stuff. Moving once again and this time there will not be a move after it. I guess we’re not going to completely unpack after all. Way too much work to have to pack everything up again. So might as well wait until we move to our final destination.

more later must go back to mentally decorating our house.


Singing Once Again

After two long years I’ve found one of my passions once again. When I lived in Vancouver I use to sing with a band and I’ve missed it ever since I moved to Ottawa.

Finally, on Thursday November 1, I start singing with Shout Sister Choir and they are totally awesome. They sing a huge range of songs which makes it even more enjoyable.

I absolutely love singing. It helps me when I’m stressed or feeling blue or just during those times when I just feel like singing. This time of year is when I especialy love it. All those lovely holiday songs that will be starting long before they should that are just so darn catchy. Country is my absolute favorite thing to sing of course and this choir even does a few of those, *smiles*.

Anyways, here’s to another new adventure and I hope it turns out well.

I have loads of songs to learn to sing so I must get back to practicing.

Anyone have a translator for this darn French song I need to learn?

This is turning out to be a great second half of a horrible year!


Did Lacey Really Do It?

So everyone by now should be aware of the fact that there’s a cute adorable puppy named Lacey here right? Right.

No, then stop reading this post right now and go read about her. You can’t miss the posts!

So a couple of days ago James discovers a wet spot on the floor and you know what that means?

Yep, that Lacey struck again, *growls*

But wait, was it really Lacey? Some people say James really did it and blamed the poor dog that was currently sleeping in her crate.

Then to make matters worse he tried to kill me. That horrible beast! He sprayed loads of air freshener to try and cover the smell and me me have to close the room door and bury my head under my pillow and blanket. *sighs*. I mean he knows I have chemical sensitivities. What was he thinking?

Wait, never mind don’t answer that.

So, what is your vote? Did Lacey pee on the floor or was it James?


Life with Lacey

How is life with Lacey going?

It’s actually not going that bad. For a dog that’s suppose to be so hard to handle she’s doing very well. It’s been almost two weeks and she is much better than she was on day one.

Every once in a while she will put me to the test to see what she can get away with, but it seems not as much as what she’s doing to poor James, *smiles* Those two are still playing who is top dog. Power struggle and who will be the winner? *grins*

At least in the house she is doing very well with the sit, down and stay commands which she had to learn especially when it’s food time. Now outside is a totally different story at times. Watch out if she really wants something.

Lacey sit.

Person walks by, “oo hi, want to play with me? Let me sniff you”

No, Lacey sit.

Another few seconds goes by and then a nice dog comes along. “oo, now I know I get to say hi to that dog, *growl, bark, wag wag*

The joys of having a new dog eh?

She’s also gotten very good at go to bed. This was taught to her for bed time and for when we need to leave the house and she can’t have free run of the place. James and I better figure out how the heck to get that crate to be Lacey proof. She’s a Noah jr. and can magically escape the thing. I think Noah is telling her his tricks.

She’s had two accidents in the house, but those came after really long play times and not taking her out right after and that was early on. No others so far. At least that we’ve found.

She’s still learning that she is not to jump at noah if she wants to play with him, but I think she’s getting it. Today was the first day they played together for a long time without James or I having to put her to bed for being bad. *laughs* they actually wore each other out by playing which is a first.

Hopefully this weekend we can start working on taking her for short walks. Will need to give that some thought seeing that Lacey is still giving James a little trouble. I’m curious to see if she’s a squirrel chaser like my boy Noah.

Anyways, that’s all for now. More about Lacey and Noah another day.


Newworlds Ateraan

Are you looking for a great role-play game? Need someplace to go to escape the real world for a while and just be someone else? I have just the place for you!

Come check out Newworlds Ateraan where you can find dragons, orcs, killer turkeys, elves, dwarfs, nymphs and so much more! Come learn about the druids, mages, warriors, merchants and all the other guilds that Ateraan has to offer.

Newworlds Ateraan is a role-play enforced game. this means that you are your char the moment you step into the game. Great for those people that are looking for this style, right? Right.

Are you totally blind and also looking for a role-play game to play? Guess what, Newworlds is that place for you. The staff do everything they can to include you. There are quite a few blind players on the game that can also help you out if you get stuck.

I have been playing this game since july 2010. It is my first ever role-play game. I’ve met some pretty awesome people here that I’m friends with both in and out of game. I’ve had my current character Neechi since November 2010 and people keep telling me she’s pretty awesome! I think they just tell me that though, *smiles*

I won’t mis-lead you, the game does have some bad times as well: such as, people not liking some rules or decisions that are made or the fact that sometimes the game goes down for a while and drives all of us that are addicted absolutely nuts. If it was absolutely perfect then it wouldn’t be any fun now would it?

Check out what some of the players below have to say about their experience with the game and I hope you find the time to come join us!


Great Way to Start the Day

Last night was a total pisser. That stupid mother nature came to pay me a visit and she’s freaken early! Can someone please remind me why it is I decided to stop taking the depo shot? *growls* I hate mother nature.

This morning on the other hand was a great way to start the day.

Once again I passed my Sociology test with flying colors. Guess that makes up for the test I took last week in Addictions and know for sure that I didn’t do that well on. I was feeling pretty depressed about that, but this helps a little.

Kind of funny that the one class that I’m not exactly interested in is the one class that doesn’t have me lost without really having a book that I have good marks in. Figure that one.

Ah well, now to prepare for the next test which is sex. Anyone want to take that one for me?


Scent Free Cabs?

Schools, work places and hospitals are all trying very hard to be scent free environments so that individuals like myself that suffer from Multiple Chemical Sensitivity don’t have to stay locked in their own homes. Sadly though not everyone is aware that this is an actual disability as well. Some people also figure that if they don’t smell anything or that it’s not too strong for them, then it will be fine for us. Wrong! It can sometimes be extremely bad for us: for example, could cause someone to pass out if they have a strong reaction.

Anyways, the purpose of this post is to say that I believe there should be scent free cabs as well. Some of these cabs drivers ride around in their cars with the windows up and it strongly smelling of whatever scent is in their car. Well, in some cases it could also be that they haven’t had a shower in like forever, but that’s another matter.

I know we can’t go around telling people not to have nice smelly stuff in their cars, but if they are serving the public and it’s a very enclosed space then they should also be conscience of those that could get in their cars and have MCS. Unfortunately you can’t always have the window down to try and circulate the over powering smell. I mean I’ll do it if I really need to so I don’t pass out on the way home, but I don’t want to freeze to death either.