happy mommys day!

Hi hi hi! Yes’s I knows it’s earlys in the morning and all good babies like me should be awakes and telling their mommys happy mommys day!

So’s with thats being says, appy mommy day to the bestest mommy in the worlds! I loooooooooves you’s lots and lots!

I’s almost 9 months old and I drives my mommy nuts, but she’s loves me anyways! I jumps on her and pulls her hairs and squishes her nose and she laughs and kisses me and blows bubbles on my tummy. Bestest mommy evers!

I growls and babbles at hers from the moments I wakes up and she always listens to me’s. Don’t I’s sound cute?

I knows says mommy yets, but I’s still loves you!

Happy mommys day and now lets play!

Third times the charm, happy birthday baby J

Whew, what a busy time it’s been! Lets update everyone that hasn’t already heard the news and hopefully get the blog caught back up, smiles.

As everyone knows that last week, last Tuesday afternoon I went into the hospital because baby J was trying once again to enter the world early and the results of that lovely visit. If you don’t remember, then, check that out here

Now lets move ahead to early Friday morning about 2AM eastern standard time. I end up in the hospital yet again because J says he wants out now! This time the staff is extremely rude in the fact that they made me feel like what the hell am i doing there, it’s all about the baby and you as the mother really don’t matter. Comments like, “the baby is fine so you’ll be ok.” I tell them I’m the one stressed out due to the pain he’s causing along with the contractions and I get, “oh, just relax and you’ll be fine. The baby is what’s important and he’s looking good. What’s a little discomfort to a healthy baby. You do want him coming out healthy right?” Um, like really. What a way to make the mom depressed and feel like crap, right?

So anyways, around 10:30-11AM our doctor comes in once again and states that “if the contractions were still 5 to 6 minutes apart she’d take little guy out, but since they’re not . . .”

By then I lost it and just cried even more. Once again how I felt and my concerns meant nothing even to my doctor! I was getting ready to call my bf and let him know that I’d be heading home once again to suffer because the doctors and nurses didn’t give a damn, but before that happened, here comes the fun part!

Baby J

No no no no nos, no mores upsetting my mommys and keeping mes in here. I wants out and I wants out rights now!

Five minutes after my doctor left my hospital room she came back in and said, “well the contractions picked back up so I’m going to check you out to see if you’ve dilated.”

The next thing I hear is . . . “oh crap, she has.”

Doctor, How soon can your husband get here?
Me, I don’t know, he’s has to call work and find a ride.
Doctor, um, well, do you think he can get here by 12:30?
Me, um, well, I think so, but he’ll definitely try super hard.

Come to find out that J was not screwing around this time. He meant business and they were taking him out by c-section or he was coming out naturally. He apparently made me dilate a lot, where if she waited any longer it would be taken from her by J, lol.

So needless to say I was then quickly prep for that c-section that wasn’t suppose to happen until August 29. BF/daddy made it there by 1pm and baby J was born at 1:59PM.

He entered the world weighing 7lbs, 8 ounces, 20 inches long, a head full of dark hair and blue eyes and to show his displeasure to the nurses and doctors that upset his mommy and forced him to stay in longer than he wanted…he peed on them! hahahahahahahah

Wow, let me tell you this boy has some powerful ass lungs on him! They pulled him out and within 2 seconds he definitely made his voice heard.

Doctor, now that’s what I like to hear.
Me, I told you had nothing to worry about. He demanded he was ready. Should have listened the first time.

So from this moment forward the pregnancy entries have ended and the fun of baby J has begun! I hope you’re ready for the ride…we’re in for trouble now!

Road to Canadian Citizenship

July 1, 2015 was a day to remember.

1. 3 years with James How we made it this long is beyond me, lol. Just kidding!

2. On my twelfth year in Canada, Mother Nature gave to me. A water logged macbook air! Can you say ow? Well, I said that and a whole lot more!

3. concussions concussions concussions! I mean what’s a day in the life of me without a head injury? My poor brain I think has left the building since then and has refused to come back. This makes school very difficult, lol.

The second half to this year has definitely made me want to crawl back in bed and stay there until next year! But, instead of doing that I decided I want to add one more adventure to my crazy busy life and it’s a “big” one!

Finally after 12 years I’m going to apply for Canadian Citizenship! Maybe if I’m lucky, ha ha it will happen some year on July 1? Since the first day i landed in Canada and saw “real” snow I’ve actually felt at home. I was also told that I couldn’t apply for citizenship because I’d lose my other one as well and that turns out not to be the case.

So let the road to becoming a Citizen begin!

First Steps!
1. study guide, check
2. get Canadian Citizenship forms, check
3. raise money to start the process, groans
4. study study study! check

Happy birthday LD luna Moon!

I think one of the worse days to have a birthday is on April Fools Day even for a dog, but that’s what today is for my little pocket rocket!

Luna is now 2 years old and she had to spend part of it working. Isn’t that horrible?To make it even worse is she had to sit through Anatomy and Physiology. Oh the horror! Today she made sure that she got all sorts of attention by giving everyone big sad puppy eyes until they gave in and asked if they could pet her, lol. My girl is too smart for her own good!

Today was pretty rough for me as well, but this galloping bundle of joy still brought a smile to my face.

To her sibling that hopefully made it to a great working dog like her, happy birthday to you too!

2015 busy busy busy

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2015 is here and it starts off with a busy busy busy month! Just the way I like it.

What was the first thing that popped in my inbox to ring off 2015? An audition for NBC’s Hannibal in Toronto. I so want to try for that. Figures the moment I stop paying attention to acting so much something comes up that’s close and would be great to go for. They are looking for a blind person to be in a few episodes. Definitely time to get on the move and quickly update my acting stuff. Where the heck is that acting resume and I need a new headshot, oh yes and Luna does too!

lol, so in yesterdays entry I wrote that I wanted to watch Annie 2014 and that it needed to hurry and come on cable. Well, not long after that entry was posted I actually got the movie. nope, not on cable, sorry.

Annie 2014 definitely has some amusing parts and some things could have been better, but i’d definitely watch it again. I also agree that kids now would probably like it more than the original. I however like them both. They both in their own way have amusing parts.

Annie 2014
Annie, Sandy has to go.
Will, lemonade or chicken nuggets?

It’s back to school time. This is a good thing and a bad one, lol.

Good being that I finally will get to start working on getting my massage training for here in Ontario. I’m going to be doing it on a course by course basis for a little while since the school is like super expensive. Hopefully by the time i *have* to switch into the program itself the cost will be a bit cheaper. I also have to go out and buy new clothes. This school you *must* wear the school colors. You have a choice of white, cream or green. Bleh! Why couldn’t they have like purple? Ah well, guess I’ll pick green. Shopping on Monday it will be.

The bad thing is I just don’t have the confidence in myself for this school stuff. I discovered in the last few months that y attention span for school at the college or university level definitely needs some work, like badly! All my tricks for keeping my focus and not getting so agitated and restless in school before are not working at this level.

luna will be going for her first *spa* day on Monday so that she’s all nice and pretty before our first day of class on Tuesday. And since there’s currently no snow thanks to mother nature, I won’t have to worry about her diving in it right away after her bath, lol.

Moving moving moving!!! The end of the month it’s moving time. Just in case you missed it, OTTAWA PEOPLE, come out, come out, where ever you are! Help help help, we need help!

Shhh, those of you in the peanut gallery, not help in that way, lol. Although it’s probably true.

Also, on the same day we get the keys for the apartment Luna and I are heading off to a concert. I’d tell you where, but I forgot where it is, lol. Good thing I’m not doing the driving, ha!

Now, back to my cheese cake while Luna snores in her bed. Where’s that muzzle?

2014 the emotional year

So this year ends the way it started, cold!!!

This has been one hell of a year, so how about we wrap it up and hopefully get ready for a better new year?

1. This time last year I mentioned that I had to take my ex in-laws to court so that my daughter could come here for a visit. Well, finally in the first half of this year my wish came through. Good news, my daughter will be coming for a visit. Bad news, her grandmother will be coming with her. The really really bad news, I’m being made to pay for her hotel stay cause she claims she can’t afford it. What a crock of shit. She’s known I was asking for my daughter to come here for over a year and she could have saved up, especially since the woman has more money than I do, but nooooooo, she had to tell the judge she doesn’t have money and I should pay for it. I wouldn’t mind so much if she wouldn’t have tried to play dirty and tell lies or hell if it’s her I wanted to spend time with. And get this, she even had the nerve to ask if she could stay in our house. Yeah, I think not. I want to visit with my daughter, not babysit grandma the liar too. I hope she can figure out how to get around cause I’m not holding her hand there.

Sorry, definitely a bad topic. So we’ll just move right along, right, right!

2. On April 1, 2014 Noah died of cancer. It was the absolute worse day of this year and it is one I will never forget. the cancer came on so sudden, one month he was fine and the next it was too late to do anything. It was just there. Noah was my silly white golden boy from Canadian Guide Dogs and you can check him out if you look around this blog under his name, smiles.

After he died I wasn’t sure if I could go through getting another dog and I also couldn’t stand using that stupid cane! I beat myself up for over a month wondering if there was anything I could have done, and knowing there wasn’t.

Slam the door on the first half of this year, boy it was tough and emotional…bring on the second half!

3. While grieving for my pal Noah I started the application process for a new puppy since sometimes they can take a while. Some schools I applied to in the end turned out not too be what I wanted, but didn’t discover that until I really sat down to think over it. Then I decided what the hell and my last choice was Leader Dogs. loads of emails back and forth with loads of questions and in July I was accepted to their program! *cheers loudly*

Oh, also in July I made it to my 2nd year with James and I have now been in Canada for 11 years. Where the hell does the time go?

ok, so back to the good stuff, lol.

4. September 16, 2014 I got the most awesomeness dog I’ve ever met named Luna. If you’ve been following my blog, you know all about her. If not, then what the heck are you waiting on? Get to reading! You know that date of April 1, I told you I’d never forget? Well, the other reason for that is Luna’s birthday is on April 1, now how creepy is that?

Luna and I have been together for a little over 3 months now and she is totally my dog and keeps me on my toes. Still things to iron out, but getting her is a decision I don’t regret. Thank you Leader for my new best friend!

5. What’s the end of a year without something drama or moving wise. last year drama, the year before that moving. So can you guess what this year is?

Yep, that’s it, moving. This nice dream house has raised the rent so that it’s just out of my comfort zone and next year we will be moving…and it’s back to apartment living! I will no longer be able to just kick Luna out the door for her park time. I’ll actually have to get dressed and freeze in the cold with her. Now that is a crime!

Hey you Ottawa People, i’m still calling you out. If you can drive and are big and tough, PLEEEEEEEEEASE come help us move!!

6. A definite must see…Annie 2014. I really want to see what the *new* Annie is like. Hurry up and get on tv!

This year has been full of ups and downs, some have gone some still remain. 2015 will bring new things and I can’t wait to see how they turn out. So I raise a glass to you and Luna raises her tail!

Happy New Years Eve everyone, and now lets go have those drinks!

‘Twas the night before Christmas and the kennel was still

Here’s the cute little Christmas story that makes its way around all guide dog schools this time of year. If you have a guide dog, I’m sure you’ve heard it…and if not, well, why not? lol

Merry Christmas and Happy New year to all handlers and those furry pups!

‘Twas the night before Christmas and the kennel was still,
The dogs asleep after eating their fill.
The Labradors curled up and quite snug in their beds,
With visions of edible goodies dancing in their heads.

The Goldens and Shepherds sprawled out on the floor,
Some twitched in their sleep and continued to snore.
The dog food was stacked neatly in the feed room with care,
With the scent of dog food swirling in the air.

The kennel cat lying on the cool window ledge,
Surveying the dogs as they lay on their beds.
Something was different, that little cat knew.
Tonight something would happen, it had to be true.

Before the trainers packed up and started for home,
They wished us all, “Merry Christmas!” in a merry tone.
The dogs sensed the joy during the training and walks,
The trainers were much happier and eager to talk.

In the mall working through the maze of people and stores,
We saw decoration and music and distractions galore!
The dogs pranced along without worry or fear,
But some balked at the man on the sleigh with the fake looking deer.

The cat sprang up when he was startled by a sound,
From a loud “Whoosh” in the air and a jingle around.
It reminded him of a dog’s collar when the animal shook,
But this sound kept on growing. He’d better go look.

From the rooftop came a noisy thump and ker-plunk,
The kennel cat scampered to the Christmas tree trunk.
A jolly old man in red appeared from the chimney,
Standing in the kennel gazing at the wonder in glee.

The dogs still so quiet, all sleeping so sound,
As this man dressed in red tiptoed in and around.
He patted the cat as he walked past his spot,
And made his way to the trainers’ empty coffee pot.

A brown German shepherd sat up not quite awake,
Followed by a Golden with a mighty loud shake.
All of the dogs jumped up making a loud noise.
In spite of the rumble, the jolly man kept his poise.

After preparing the coffee pot, it started to brew,
He sat down on a chair and took in the view.
Dogs all around him, spectacular in breed,
He knew well their jobs, the blind people they would lead.

The dogs standing up and barking quite loud,
Quieting down after a chorus of howls.
The man dressed in red laid a finger on his lips,
And with a twinkle in his eyes, he silenced the yips.

Gazing at the dogs in training he started to talk,
“Hello my pups, I’m Santa Claus”.
Turning to fill his mug with coffee and cream,
He said, “I’ve always wanted to stop here. It’s been one of my dreams.”

The cat peeking out began exploring Santa’s sack.
“Yes, little kitty, that’s an empty pack”.
Santa smiled as he looked into the dogs sparkling eyes,
Deep brown ones and gold ones held wide in surprise.

Some of the dogs he remembered from last year,
In their puppy homes, cute and full of holiday cheer.
“I didn’t bring you presents or bones for you to chew,
I’ll tell you something better, what you are going to do.”

“You are working hard with trainers who deeply care,
Giving you praise and correction, gentle and fair.””
You’ll go many places and face many strange things,
You’ll ride buses and subways and hear fire sirens ring.”

“You’ll See cars drive close to you, but you will stand tall and strong,
Not moving into danger, not moving toward wrong.”
“Just when you think that this trainer’s the best,
Once again you’ll be faced with another of life’s tests.”

After you learned every lesson your trainer can teach,
It will be time for your trainer to turn over the leash”.
“Your new friend will be someone that is blind and can’t see,
Your guide work will help them walk independently and free”.

“Some are visually impaired and can see just a tad,
Most of their sight is missing and their focus is bad”.
“Your training as guide dogs will replace their eyes,
You will work as a team facing challenges that arise”.

Santa sipped at his coffee and looked over the brood,
Knowing what he had to say next might sound a bit rude.
“Not all of you will do the work of a canine guide,
Your time here isn’t wasted, you won’t be cast aside.”

“Some of you will be a service dog for a person with different needs,
Making their life so wonderful, happy and free”.
“Your work is so important, People wait on long lists,
To receive such good dogs as you, the school folks insist.”

When the last drop of coffee filled Santa’s cup,
The jolly man turned smiling at each wide eyed pup.
“The best gift of all is to give something back,
That’s why there’s nothing for you all inside of my pack.”

Finishing his coffee Santa visited each pen,
Petting and scratching each dog again and again.
“Next year and many more after this magical night,
Your gift of guide work will replace someone sight”.

“Each day you’ll guide your new friend along the way,
Noticing harm you’ll step out of the way.”
“You will travel the cities and find new ways,
With the Masters harness in hand day after day”.

“Your master will love you and treat you with care,
And remember your training and trust will always be there.”
“The bond you share will be special and strong,
Like a new puppy or the tune from a song”.

After the last dog had been petted and softly soothed,
Santa put away the coffee pot and made ready to move.
Up to the roof top he rose quickly high above,
With a smile and a wave as he slipped on his gloves.

The dogs peered out the window as Santa flew out of sight.
They heard Santa say, “Merry Christmas to all, and to all a Good Night”!

Author Unknown

Wow, we made it another year!

Can you believe it? It’s July 1st already. Today makes 11 years in Canada for me. I can’t believe that I’ve lived here for that long. Where in the heck has the time gone? Alberta and one failed relationship, to BC figuring out who I am, to Ottawa where I am definitely happy and in one hell of a relationship! Wish leads to . . .

The most important part about today, my 2nd anniversary with my lesser half James

The last year had some ups and pretty scary downs, but somehow we made it another year. I think we’re getting pretty darn good at this awesome relationship stuff eh? Here’s to another year to us and many more together.

Well, that’s after I leave you now remember with loads of noodles! Ha! *chuckles*

Welcome to 2014

Hello 2014, nice to see you. Can you do me a favour though and kindly warm up? This -32C business is no longer needed, thanks.

Well, this year started off with some drama sadly. Some people clearly need to learn what the word “friend” means. Pitching a fit because you didn’t get your way and spreading lies about people is not what a friend makes. Sing private information with people and getting it wrong at that just because you didn’t get what you wanted again is not what a friend makes. But, apparently some people have to have drama in their lives and make others look bad when they don’t get their way and show how much of a little kid they are. Cling-ons, who needs them.

Anyways, on to the rest of 2014. Who the hell said the mall could be closed? I mean hell I froze outside to go get Starbucks and the darn mall was closed. Who authorized that? *shakes a fist* Then on top of that the pool and hot tub are closed today too. *growls* That’s it, I demand a restart of today, minus the stupid drama stuff, ok? Ok.

Well, one good thing about today is that James and I made it to a year and a half of our relationship. We had a rocky end of last year, but we’re still holding strong. Unless something majorly horrible happens we’ll be off to Boston Pizza for dinner. We haven’t been there in months, so definitely looking forward to that and some drinking, *cheers*

Classes start for me on Monday, Child Development and Ethics. What a way to start a week, eh?

My new years resolution, I haven’t a clue, *smiles* so that means I don’t have to worry about breaking it.

Happy New Year and welcome to 2014 I hope you all have a good one.

Cat

Wrapping up 2013

Whew, what a year this has been. Lets hit the highlights!

1. At the end of January James and I moved into our dream house Even though we’ve been here a year just about it still strange living here. Our own backyard, no elevators to deal with, no mailbox keys, loads of space and most importantly the staff for this community are totally awesome!

2. Finally near the end of February I was able to get my tubes untied and start preparing for that family James and I hope to have. I want a boy and James wants a girl. OMG, the recovery was long and painful. Sadly, it’s December and still no baby, but we’re still trying.

3. Did you ever find a place that looked really good on paper and even really good when you met with them in person? Well, that’s what Everest College was like. They claim to be the best school and willing to do all they can to help their students, but if you are a student with a disability, mainly blind all that goes out the window. I first made the attempt to attend Everest College in their Early Childcare program, but I ran into a problem. I am a blind student, oh no, what do we do? So they claim they had to refer to an organization by the National Association of Career colleges and find out what to do.

ugh, I’ve never had to deal with so many stupid sighted people in my life that so clearly discriminating against a blind person. I won’t go into great detail since there’s already loads of post on this topic that you can read about. But lets say this went on for months and months, one lie after another until finally they couldn’t pretend to be helpful any longer and said so sorry, but we can’t help you.

So in the end I ended up applying back to Algonquin College just to find out that hahha, I won’t be there long either. One more term at Algonquin and then I’ll be moving over to Carleton University to enter into the Child Studies Program.

Whew, quite the rounds for schools you think? I’ll tell more about those adventures next year, but for a while there even I couldn’t figure out what way was up, *smiles*

4. Last month I had to start legal proceedings against my daughters grandparents and her father because they want to be selfish and make a simple situation into a huge big mess. I’m not glad I have to take this step, but I believe that what’s best for my child no longer matches what they believe is best for her. I sadly think things are going to get seriously ugly in the next few months as soon as they are served with paperwork, but I can’t help that. I’ll be sending off the affidavit on Thursday by express mail and how I wish I could be a fly on the wall when they find out what’s coming their way.

5. One of the best things that happened this year was that Shout Sister Choir got to open for the Nylons and it was so totally awesome! I got an autograph CD from them as well, and gave it to mom for Xmas since she really wished she could have been there.

Man, I hope I get the chance to see them live again. They are solo awesome live!!

5. Christmas was fun again as always minus the being sick part. i was tortured by James and nephews who are so adorable when they aren’t screaming their heads off or being yelled at in turn, *smiles* Dad threatened to kick me out again if I didn’t stop eating his favourite foods. This time it was cream corn, ha! I say he should be glad I was sick otherwise I would have had his bacon too, *chuckles*

6. OMG, I wrote last year this time that I was sick a lot and hopes that this year would be better. Ha, fat chance of that. After my tubal reversal I’ve been sick just about every other week. In fact, I’m still freaken sick now. This final bug that came on around the 18th does not want to let go. Someone just shoot me now and put me out of my sickness, *smiles* Better yet, can you just yell at mother nature. I’d rather be pregnant if you don’t mind and not sick from some cold or flu or whatever this death bug is.

As I said, this has been quite the year. Some good things and some bad ones that I didn’t go into here, but now it’s time to get ready for next year and all the fun it has in store. Are you ready? Grab your caps and lets go!

Happy New Years Eve everyone!!

Cat