Snow snow snow!

OMG, someone turn off that darn AC and tell the snow it’s not suppose to be here yet. It needs to come for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day and then go away, right? Right.

James and I went to Walmart today because if the weather is correct we’re suppose to be getting a whole lot of horrible freezing white stuff and I didn’t have the right type of shoes or gloves. I knew for sure that Walmart would have gloves, but the boots I was pretty worried about. Got lucky there too.

Since i sadly have to go out to a doctors appointment I’ll get to see how well they are. *brrrr*

now if I could find a really good winter coat I’ll be almost set for this horrible winter thing again.

Why did I move to where it’s super cold again?


So uncomfortable, but stuck in situation

I’m not sure what’s worse wanting something so bad that it drives you nuts, or wanting something bad enough but may not get it.

I’m no longer comfortable with the building I’m living in for extremely personal reasons. There’s also this really awesome place that I wish we could move to like last month, but we need a co-signer. Sadly those aren’t easy to come by.

Knowing that there’s a much better place out there and the fact that it’s just out of reach due to needing a co-signer makes it even difficult to stay here.

Trying to explain to people that no matter how big this complex is that doesn’t mean I won’t run into the person that’s causing me the discomfort. In fact, I see them more than I like and it just makes it so I never want to leave the apartment.

Ugh, I need something to seriously keep my mind busy or something if a co-signer can’t be found or falls through or something and we have to stay here. Maybe this first step of writing down partly what’s going on will help me.


Maybe not!


Phone call more important than passenger safety?

Some Blueline taxi drivers need to go back to class on passenger safety if there is such a thing. Especially when driving passengers with some form of disability.

Early this morning I had a huge craving for nachoes and cheese sticks and just had to go to Denny’s So off James and I went.

We went through our usual song and dance, waiting downstairs, blind passenger, let driver know blah blah. All went well with that part, driver was a good boy.

Sadly though when we got to Denny’s he either received or decided to make a phone call. This very important phone call made him lose his mind and forget about his blind passengers safety, because guess where he dropped us off?

*looks around confused*

In the middle of the parking lot of Denny’s and drove off! Didn’t ask if we needed help or anything. He just went on with his conversation, very loud too I must say, took our payment and poof, off he went.

Luckily for us a waitress was watching and came outside to help us. Yes, we would have eventually found the sidewalk, but that was completely stupid on the drivers part.

This Blueline Taxi driver this morning made their company look very very bad.

Where was that effective and professional service?


Know any good books?

I love reading and always on the look out for great books to read. I read everything from childrens books to westerns.

I even read non-fiction books like Ann Rule. In fact, she’s one of my favourites.

So if anyone out there has great books that you’ve read or might be reading soon please post them here. Hell even if you know of books that were absolutely horrible in your opinion post that too.

Don’t be a stranger and send up your book reviews.


Nerves strike again

Well, those darn nerves are striking again can you believe that?

I’ve been with James for 5 months now and it’s been awesome. We hit it off from day one much to both of our shock, *smiles*

Even though I’ve already met some of his family and spent time out at as I call them now too, mum and dads I still get nervous thinking of meeting more family members that I don’t know yet. Like this holiday I’ll be spending it with him and who knows who else out in Pedawawa.

They’ll probably have things for me and I don’t have anything for them in return. Not so sure I’m comfortable with this. James of course would tell me not to worry, ha, fat chance of that.

Ah well, nerves and all I’m so lucky forward to this holiday with someone that makes me very happy and having loads of pumpkin pie? *nudge nudge mum*


Algonquin’s CSD department falls flat

They didn’t like it when I kept getting after them for what they were screwing up as far as my supplies needed for my program, so here’s one even better.

Centre for Students with Disabilities (CSD) at Algonquin College is suppose to be there to help students that have a disability be successful in school, right? Well, how is it that they can’t even get one, count it one course prepared for a student in a timely matter?

In September James made CSD aware that he would be going through academic upgrading for math and wanted to know how much time they would need for getting things adapted for him so that he could start. Well, they first told him that he’d have to do the test first to see where he’d place and they could go from there. Great, super, not a problem. Lets get the ball rolling.

Ok, so test was taken and got all the information that was needed and James was suppose to start in October, but um wait, what happened? Who dropped the ball?

Hey CSD where did you go? It’s now December did they forget about that math course and James? Why not go over to the geeks house and see if he has something to say about this issue. Although he’s lazy and probably doesn’t, ha!


Greenbank Towers tries to screw blind tenant

This will be a pretty long post. You have been warned.

Greenbank Towers currently managed by Paramount Property made a huge mistake in September and tried to make it out that they weren’t at fault and that I was.

Starting in June of this year Greenbank Towers started taking their rent of $859 directly from my bank account. This was great for me since it meant there was one less thing I had to concern myself about. For the months of June, July and August things ran smoothly, but along came September. All of a sudden Greenbank Towers forgot about rent. After a week went by I checked in with the property manager for these apartments and was told to just hang tight due to the holiday and rent would come out. Another week went by and rent was still sitting in my bank account so I checked again with the rental office. Once again I was told just to wait and rent would come out. I offered to pay went directly with my bank card, but it was refused. Again time went by and rent was still sitting in my account. I checked in once more and guess what I got?

Yep, I got the same. Rent will come out just wait. I once again stated I would pay rent directly with my bank account and the rental office refused. I finally had enough of this and gave up asking.

The end of September came around and my rent was still sitting in my bank account of $859 so I put that money towards my tuition for school. I had no idea what Greenbank Towers and Paramount Property was doing and I was past tired of getting the run around with it.

Now here’s where Greenbank Towers tries to screw their blind tenet over their mistake.

October rolled around about a week after Thanksgiving and I get a phone call asking about when I planned on paying rent from September of $859? Seriously! They were now going to come and ask me about rent? So I went over with them what things took place during that month and the part everyone played.

Of course they didn’t want to hear that they messed up. They claimed that they tried to take rent, but it wasn’t going through. Um hello, huge lie. If there was a bank problem why not say so right away? Why wait a whole month later? But that’s ok it was a lie anyway. Greenbank Towers did not even attempt to take rent since RC showed no record of this. How is it you all of a sudden are having trouble taking rent from this account when it worked fine the months before?

Greenbank Towers along with Paramount Property wanted to argue with me over this and then state that I knew rent needed to be paid and that I should have made other arrangements to do so. WTF, did people forget that I did just that and it was refused? What were they smoking?

Well, then it came down to the when can you put some money toward this balance? I explained to them that since I’m on low income it would be a while but it would get paid. I had no problem paying them the $859. I knew they should have their money, but I also wasn’t going to break my back trying to do so since I did all I could back in September. Greenbank and Paramount wanted half of the rent and wanted it right away despite me telling them it was not possible. I explained to them that since Septembers rent went towards school I would then use the income for school to cover rent whenever I got that payment. I sadly couldn’t give a date because I had no control over that.But guess what? Greenbank and Paramount wanted not to hear that and they kept pushing. So I took another step because I felt I was entering a bad situation and needed some help.

I called a lawyer and got advice on what to do. I explained the whole situation with time line and all and stated my concerns. I was told by the lawyer that I did everything in my power to get things resolved before and Greenbank and Paramount were now in the wrong for pushing. I was advised to write everything down and mail everyone involved and state when I’d make the payment and leave it at that. I was also told that if things got worse, meaning an eviction notice to involve the lawyer further.

Well, things rent wise are now resolved and I didn’t have to call the lawyer for this matter, but Greenbank Towers and Paramount Property has lost my respect and made it so I no longer feel comfortable living in this building or any that is run by them.

Of course there’s another reason I’m not comfortable here as well, but I won’t get into that. I believe this is bad enough for now.


My first choir performance

OMG, last night was so totally awesome. I had my first choir performance with Shout Sister Choir. I was so extremely nervous and thought I’d totally freeze and forget the words to the songs and all that. We did one hell of a job and I can’t wait for the next one.

Noah who is the shout Sister dog even played his part. For our last song I danced with him and definitely got the audience attention. So much so that we had to sing our last song after all, ha! There is a video of this performance and as soon as I have it trust me it will end up here as well.

Are you also someone that loves to sing and looking for a group? Do you think that “hey I love to sing, but i sound horrible?” That’s ok, Shout Sister Choir welcomes everyone. Here’s one of my favorite songs from last nights performance to give you a taste of what we sound like.

[audio:Almost Home.mp3]

Pretty awesome eh? Make you want to be a part? Then quick go to Shout Sister Choir and find out where the closeest chapter is to you.

Time to say good-bye

Yesterday meant so much to me. Lots of things fell into place to help me see that it’s finally time to say good-bye to old pains that have been going on for 4 years. I will not include the names of the people from my past out of respect for all parties involved. Those who know me will know whom I’m speaking about anyway.

Yesterday, November 1, 2012 James and I hit our 4 month anniversary. Wow how time flies eh? After 4 years I never thought I’d find the happiness I once had. We just fit together in so many ways. Yes, we have our arguments, fights or whatever you want to call them, but we don’t just ignore them and hope they work themselves out. After some yelling, cursing and ignoring each other for a few hours we work things out the best we can. Second to my kids, James is the light of my life. It’s because of him that I’m ready to do this.

I was married once before to someone I loved very much. We were great online friends and even great partners for the first couple of years, but something changed. I started seeing the real person behind who I married. I’m not going into all the details, because that’s not what this is for. It’s not a bitch session, but needless to say by August of 2008 I finally had enough of things that were going on. Things that he was doing inside the relationship and things that I ignored and did myself was just not getting better and it was time to go. I wasn’t sure what I was going to do or where I was going to go, but I just knew we didn’t belong together any longer. It wasn’t good for us or for the kids involved.

Well, November 1, 2008 things took a turn for the worse and things were done that I will never ever forgive. I’m letting go of the hatred I have, but I can’t let go of all of what I feel. Some things were said about me, nasty ones that caused me to lose 2 extremely important things to me, my children. Even 4 years later there’s no way in hell that due to the parties involved they will be with me again. One party is jus so damn evil and mean and the other honestly I’m not sure. I just feel that with them even though we talk it’s also a closed door. I could be wrong there, *shrugs* Anyways, it’s that thought that keeps me hurting 4 years later. Well, one thing anyway.

For months after this I cried, was in a serious state of depression and entered my suicidal state. Just hearing my ex’s name or reading it or anything that reminded me of him would set me off. Not being able to hold my kids tore me apart.

Two things happened at once that brought me out of that stage. One was that my ex told me that all our marriage was to him was a piece of paper. The second was that he already had someone else months after our life ended. So to me that just showed me that I didn’t mean much to him anyway. Yes, I did things to in the relationship that weren’t great, but they were always in response to what he did, but no one ever wanted to see that. I was the outsider and he was the one that could do know wrong. Still to this day he acts the same. Despite all that I stil care for him and do wish him the best and hopes that he found happiness in the person he’s with now. Yes, that’s the too nice me speaking, but it’s true.

Anyways, after that revolution I took time to myself. I didn’t want a serious relationship. I didn’t want anyone extremely close to my heart. I went back and forth with someone, but he drove me nuts more so than not and isn’t worth my time or blog space to write about.

I needed time to heal just a bit and figure out who the hell I was and wanted to be and where I was going. I needed to try and fix my life or get it back before I screwed up someone elses.

Fast forward to May of this year. I met James, the nut I’m now living with and though what I felt for him when I first met him scared the living hell out of me and I tried to hide it from myself. In the end, he stole my heart and I’m right where I should be.

So, to the person I once loved and the person I was before I say good-bye. To the hatred I once had I say good-bye. Maybe one day all of the pain that came with that time I can say good-bye to as well.

On to my new life with James and our family to be.